Run down

[Cindylou]

I feel so run down today. Don't know if it's the grey, overcast day, poor sleep last night (although I slept 8 hours), beaten down by pain levels, too much activity yesterday, or a combination of all the above? I just keep nodding off today. Time to cave in to "the sleep gods." zzzzzzz

[KBear]

I'm with you, it's nice and sunny here, but my day has not been going as planned. My hormonal self wants to lay down and cry, then go to sleep. I'm now adding a puking child to my list for the day..... ughhhh. Praying that no one else gets what she has. Tomorrow is a new day.

[Justin]

Sorry CL & Kathy. Count me in: I've been throwing up all morning...it's been a rough day. (Wow, I actually get to use that smilie.)

[Cindylou]

Misery loves company, no? I think yes. Thanks Kathy and Justin for the commiserating. lol Is it a new moon perhaps? Justin, sounds like maybe you have a bug, unless it's food poisoning. Any chance of the latter? Feel better. Kathy, you and I need to just start our days over I think. Tomorrow is our new day. I've had such a busy fall, and I think it finally caught up with me......and I just hit the wall. I slept today from 3-6:30 with no problem. I never take naps. Ever. I guess today I needed one. It probably hasn't helped that I have been forlorn for two big reasons: My youngest son, my baby, after years of dead end testing, and just recently going with him to these latest 3 Dr.'s visits and MRI's, we finally have the diagnosis....that yes, he does indeed have Lyme's Disease, and that's after 2 negative lab tests. The 3rd one was the crowning jewel. Meanwhile, he has suffered with these vague, debilitating symptoms for 2.5 years. Way too young to be dealing with this crap. Depression is written all over his face, but he says "no, Mom. I'm not depressed." Well, we finally have the diagnosis, but the neurologist that discovered it isn't, understandably, going to prescribe the necessary antibiotics and now he can't be seen until December 21st, by the appropriate Lyme's specialist. He also leaves the day after Thanksgiving for a much anticipated and well deserved Holiday, that certainly didn't help with the scheduling for this appointment. Ugh. I thought about trying to get him in to someone else sooner, but I'm not exactly well versed in Lyme Disease Specialists in the twin cities. He says it's not that big a deal...that he's already waited for 2.5 years for a diagnosis, so what's one more month? I say, as the ever protective Mother Lioness of my youngest cub, that was before we had a diagnosis. Strike while the iron is hot! Not gonna happen, I can tell. He is heading out to Seattle for 9 days to pursue a ladylove he met this summer while working on The Gunflint Trail. Gonna see if it was just a summer fling, or maybe something more. Didn't help that when he and my hubby had their weekend together up at the cabin doing all the fall chores, they also had a "man to man" talk about this girl, and hubby encouraged him to jump on a plane and win over his fair maiden! So my son is "locked" into his plan. He takes a train from Seattle to San Francisco for the final 2 weeks of his journey to take his meditation classes at a Zen facility.

Not long after the Lyme's Disease diagnosis, we find out my step-son, who literally just stepped on American soil last week, has called off his wedding, only 6 weeks away! This poor girl. She already had her wedding dress, naturally, as did all of her bridesmaids. All of us relatives had our plane tickets and hotel reservations. He put a ring on her finger last Christmas Day. They have been in a serious, committed relationship for 3 years. This young gal has been there in his corner, every step of the way, especially with his PTSD, upon returning from his first tour of duty in Iraq. Now I completely get that they shouldn't walk down the aisle with these doubts he is having, but the squabbling is over basic communication 101 disagreement! I am quite disappointed in my step-son to have led this beautiful girl along for so long. He is still planning on coming to visit us in mid-December (originally bringing her) and I do believe his older step-brothers will have a few choice words for him....like get professional counseling before throwing away a 3 year relationship! We know he won't necessarily listen to us, the parents, so we are glad that one evening "just the boys", all 4 of them, are headed out for a guys night. Believe me, I get boys. I had 3 of them, plus 4 with my step-son. I had 2 brothers. I adore boys. But that doesn't mean they don't fuc* up every now and then and couldn't use the advice of a salty woman. All of this combined has left me a bit mellow and sad, to say the least.

[Vanessa]

Sending all of you big HUGS today!! I'm sorry all of you are just feeling down, out and sick My day wasn't so great either, so I think there was just something in the air today. Hope tomorrow is a better day!!

[KBear]

CL- So sorry about your son's lyme disease diagnosis. I'm sure that brings mixed emotions, glad to have a diagnosis, but not the one you wanted to hear. I've heard that the treatment is months/ years of antibiotics.... not sure if that is correct or not though. I'll keep him in my prayers.

Not even sure what to say about step son backing out of the wedding. My mind just goes to all the work and money of planning a wedding and then to have all that thrown away, on top of your relationship being over. I hope the brothers can talk with him and find out what's going on. While I would never suggest marrying if you know it's not right, I wouldn't want nervousness/ cold feet to ruin it either. Will pray for wisdom and guidance for him and her.

I think it's the one thing on top of the other that really just snowballs us all at once. I know for me yesterday, I was just flat out overwhelmed with everything that needs done before baby is born. Then sick kiddo- who is better today- that just topped it off. I had a much better day today, actually got my daughter's room cleaned out, had hubby take some of her furniture out that was cluttering her room and going to use it in baby's room. It is such a relief to have her room done, I've been looking at it for months dreading having to clean it. I will say under the bed was disgusting, I have threatened her within an inch of her life about anything going under that bed. I checked it, in front of her tonight, so she knows she's gonna get caught if she throws junk under it again. I now only have 1 closet and a desk to organize and my upstairs is done as far as organization goes! Feeling a lot more manageable.

Justin- Hope the throwing up is over and you are feeling better. I hate nausea/ vomiting, it's the worst.

Vanessa- I hope you have a better day tomorrow too.